Wow, only one month in Berlin and so much has happened. My work in the children´s hospice is beautiful. The team is loving and supportive and thus a great job is done for the kids we are taking care of. We are able to give them our full attention, affection and support the parents on this difficult journey. It is great to experience generosity first hand as a way of life.
A great event took place last week. Johannes one of my best friends – we lived and worked together in Buenos Aires with street kids for one year – came to visit. He arrived Thursday evening and we went straight to a public lecture with musical interludes. The evening was such a blessing. Meeting each other once more and then having a great time together. The lecture took place in an old brewery in dowtown Berlin, “die alte Kulturbrauerei”. The small room under the roof of that building was packed with people. All seats were taken. Therefore we squeezed ourselves in, right behind the bar. Three women read about different experiences in their life and shared writings as their personal art form. To me, the best was the musical interlude. Alice Rose, a brilliant singer and songwriter from Copenhagen shared her music and heart with the audience.
When she entered the stage I wasn´t expecting much. She carried a strange looking instrument, some sort of mix between harp and accordion. However once she started to sing I got goosebumps. What a beautiful voice! And what a song: “Berlin is for dreamers”
No doubt we found ourselves in it and I realized once more that I actually realized a dream by moving to Berlin.
After the event we went back to my new home, sat together had a few beer and shared dreams.
Friday after a great and healthy breakfast we went to the DDR Motorcycle museum. They had them all from Schwalbe to Simson to BMW models constructed at the Eisenacher Motorenwerke in East Germany. We enjoyed looking at those old retro bikes and imagines ourselves having our own garage to custom bikes for us and our friends. Who knows? Might this dream come true?
From there we went to an “Act Photo Exhibition” displaying nude people in different postures and sceneries. The exhibition was very small though and not very special. It must have taken us only about 15 minutes to go through the pictures and decide to move on once more.
We left for the Sony World Photo exhibition in the Willy Brandt Haus. There was a special exhibition by an Argentinian Photographer Pablo Ernesto Piovano. He reveals the cruelty committed by Bayer and Monsanto to the common people of Argentinia. For years now they have been spraying poison on the fields of Argentina and thus crippling people and land. The outcomes are cancer already in children, genetic mutations and so forth. No one seems to care. The government does´t do anything about this genocide and neither does Bayer. We all are living on the health of those people. It is horrible and leaves me with sadness and disgust. What has chanced since the Holocaust? Well, maybe we are more sophisticated in our methods of crippling and killing people, but in looking away, not doing anything we are the same. See for yourself:
The rest of the exhibition shows award winners in different photo categories from all over the world and shows beauty too. Still the bad and sad taste of this cruelty displayed by Piovano stays. How come our politicians still don´t address such grievances. It seems it is still all about us and me in the end. Even more I feel anger about our politicians who are even unable to carry out the will of the people and for months have been debating about how to form a new government.
We leave the exhibition in a sad but more aware state.
This evening after coming back and having dinner, we go out. After more than only a few months it is the first time for both of us to stay up all night. In the so called Privatclub they have Cumbia. What a great coincidence to have this music that was such a big part of our life in Argentina now in Berlin when we see each other. We have a wonderful night with South American, Latino Beats and get to Bed at dawn.
On Saturday we join the volunteers for homeless, which provides food, clothes and shelter to them. We prepare food in huge quantities, pack clothes, sleeping bags and mats onto the truck and leave for the night café, our first station. There are already about twenty people waiting for a warm dinner and hot drinks. More are coming and we are busy handing out plates, spoons and food. The tour from Leopold square, to Alexander Platz to Kotbusser Tor is a great experience. It is beautiful to get in contact with those people, learn about their lives and simply share a few brief moments with them and the other volunteers.
We leave around half past ten for a short brake at home before we walk into another night of dance. This time we join the Yaam Winter jam, Reagge, Afro Beats and Dub. It is so awesome that we don´t leave until half past six in the morning. Something we both probably haven´t done for years.
Sunday after breakfast it is time to say good bye, until another time. We leave each other filled with new dreams, knowing that Berlin is indeed for dreamers.
It´s been exactly three weeks now since I have come to Berlin. When I arrived I had a lot of worries. I was afraid to feel lonely, not knowing anyone. I was worried if my flat made and I would go along well. There was another big worry adressing my new job. Would I enjoy working in the children´s hospice or would or would it be a chore, would I fit into the team and make friends?
And sure every now and then I miss Würzburg and above all my beautiful friends. But it is a sweet sadness, because it makes me very grateful and aware of the gift of friends I have. A big thanks to life!
Now I can say none of my early fears realy came true. I love Berlin! It is very easy to get to know great people and join social groups.
It has been the right and best decission to come here and live a dream, I had for many years. I am already part of a Meditation and Yoga group (https://www.artofliving.org/de-de/berlin), I have signed up as an actor at a local theatre group, which acts for children travelling around and is even paid – !my first real acting job! (http://www.theater-aus-dem-koffer.de/), I am part of the homeless charity program in Wedding (http://www.berliner-obdachlosenhilfe.de/), where we get together twice a week to cook for people who live in the streets of Berlin and bring them not only food, but also clothes and sleeping bags and I´ve been to two great reagge concerts as well.
Further more my best friends are coming by and visit me. Thus all feelings of homesickness are blown away. It is the best remedy indeed. Thanks guys!
What can I say I am happy to arrive and feel very alive. Thanks Berlin!
Probier mein neues Yoga workout für Arme, Schultern und Körpermitte aus. So wird es dir bald leichter fallen Asanas wie den Kopf-, Schulter- und Handstand zu erreichen. Viel Spaß!
Check out this new Yoga workout focussing mainly on arms and shoulders, but also engaging your core. Thus you´ll have easier access into armbalanced postures as well as head-arm-and shoulderstands. Enjoy!
I am very thankful to Dani Weigel who shot these amazing pictures, which give my website a new edge. If you need a reliable professional photographer, I highly recommend you to contact him: https://www.behance.net/user/?username=daniweigel
Moreover I´d like to thank Caro and Fabi, who were supporting me as models in this photo shooting. Thank you so much guys! I am very grateful to you!
Your sacred place is where you can find yourself. Our demons are our own limitations […] each of those demons is conquered by a vision quest. – Joseph Campbell
Since ancient times vision quests have been customary within native societies when important answers or the purpose of a life were inquired. It is an old ritual consisting of fasting for a certain amount of days and sitting with fire until visions or inner voices gave a direction or hint.
I chose to go on a small vision quest of 2 nights and one day, fasting in the presence of fire. Saturday evening I arrived on Leonard´s beautiful property in Staunton. It is huge, consisting of a big white, wooden main building and surrounded by trees, horse stables and dhunis. (A dhuni is a little, simple hut used for fire meditation. It has a fire place at its center and a wooden bedstead)
Our wound is the key. And we are all wounded in some way or another. As kids we are very open and natural, but we learn early to shut down our true emotional responses. We learn that there is something wrong with us and create a strong-suit, a belief that becomes our story and rules over our reality. This may be a sentence like: “I am not enough, I am not loved etc.” Again and again we fall into its trap until we learn to confront these dark sides.
During the last days I received and also gave my first official rebirthing breathing sessions. All of them added value to my life, as I see more clearly now where I still have resistances and blockages, emotionally as well as physically. Whereas my first two breathing sessions were all about the physical body and purification, I now started to find emotional barriers, old thought patterns and believes in my subconscious, that have run my life for too long. As a child I chose to take on many unreasonable personal laws that now affect my life in stupid ways. Supposedly it had been easier that way, as I didn´t have to take on responsibility that way. Allow me to show you how I finally came to realize it, being fiercely burned like a sausage.
In Yoga as well as rebirthing there exist different techniques of cleansing the body and mind. Air cleansing for example is a conscious way of breathing like Pranayama and rebirthing. It rids the body of toxins and fills it up with energy. Fire cleansing on the other hand is done by exposing ones body to the fire. Simply sitting with it the fire the burns away lot of pollution and negativity, clearing both body and mind.
Last Wednesday I embarked on my journey to the International Rebirthing Center in Staunton, Virginia.
To those who are not familiar with what rebirthing is, here a short introduction:
Rebirthing-Breathwork is one of the most valuable self-healing techniques humans can learn. Breathing is a basic healing instrument and the most natural one as well, given to us from birth. However during our lives we took on harmful breathing patterns. Everyone in our modern world is familiar to stress and we all react to it either by holding our breath in or breathing shallow and fast. Rebirthing by contrast merges inhale with exhale in a continuous flow, increasing the oxigen level within our bloodstream. Many physical ailments can be healed through repeated rebirthing sessions. And Rebirthing not only heals the body, but the mind as well. It opens up our subconscious and allows us to weed out old childhood programming and conditioning, that does not serve as any longer. Psychology proved that most bad habits and behavioral patterns are rooted in our childhood. Unfortunately and as they are residing in the realm of the subconscious it is not possible to consciously get rid of them. To reprogram ourselves the subconscious needs to be reached. Rebirthing has that power. It can heal our traumas and program the mind for prosperity, contentment, health, success and peace of mind. In the end the mind, our most frequent thought and emotional patterns create the world we live in. Letting the breath Energy move in our own body and mind has magical, mystical, and miraculous effects.
This Sunday marked the end of a beautiful period of my life spent in Würzburg, the first and only city I called home so far. Four years full of lovely events, namely theatre plays, studying to become a nurse for children, teaching yoga, giving workshops and above all sharing this time with amazing people. Friday most of my friends gathered in an already empty room – my stuff had already gone, packed and stuffed into boxes and loaded into one little car. It felt like great freedom to only have as much as to fill a car and to get rid of old, unneeded, sentimental items.